Another day

So, life in its ups and downs, has thrown me another down, and an up, I guess.

The people we were living with, the lovely lesbians, turned out to be quite bitchy and deceptive. My partner and I were kicked out, over a stupid misunderstanding. Thankfully, we have a friend who has let us stay with her until we move.

The up, is we now have a car! Thank the goddess! We can now be more independent, and actually get away from this horrible place.

Stressmas

It's nearing the infamous Christmas time, that stressful, horrid time of year when children throw tantrums and adults turn grey. Presents are mostly bought and wrapped, and now to just deal with the partners family and be done with it all!

Being an adult isn't all its cracked up to be. Bills, responsibility, work and study. Its all shit. If I could give any child any advice at all it would be to never grow up. Homelessness and being poor are the realities of life. Cling onto dependency as much as you can and take every opportunity you are offered because otherwise you will leap into the world, hopeful and unaware and be smacked down and stepped on. Avoid small, catty groups which are oozing drama, but on the same hand be aware that if you move to a city, you are invisible; a no one. In small towns, avoid making a name for yourself with the wrong people. You are better to be anonymous than to be known for the wrong reasons. Quite a sad, small life I lead, in a small town. My small, catty group is hard to avoid, as they are my partners family. I cant speak my mind or I will be making a name for myself for the wrong reason. So I guess in reality, I am living the nightmare.

Life, be in it.

Big City for small ants

So we are on our last night here and it seems like its been a long stay in some ways, but so short in others.

We came down so my partner could donate to a lesbian couple, which he did, and I am very proud of him for it. They bought their friend along to meet us, and she ended up taking a donation as well, which is fine. We are just happy to help out.

Unfortunately for me, I have a head cold which has become progressively worse as ive been here.

Have been trying to upload a pic of the city, but my computer isn't cooperating.

Back home tomorrow, have to brave public transport for around 5 hours. Ugh.

Moving forward

Well well, life seems to be crawling along at a strange pace lately. Christmas seems to be gaining on us awfully fast, but next year couldn't come fast enough! I have finally bitten the bullet, so to speak, and applied for the course I have wanted to do for years! The only problem is that I have to wait until next year to start, thus next year not coming fast enough.

My living situation is still rocky, and I am currently living in a shed with my partner, soon to be moving into another shed but I am thankful that I have somewhere I can stay at least. I am quite thankful that I now have friends as well. Since I left school I have mostly been a loner, keeping to myself and my family most of the time, but I reached out and I met a wonderful couple who have let us stay with them until we find a house. Their kids love me too which is also a bonus. I described myself to one of their mothers as 'the cool aunty who isn't cool and isn't their aunty'. She found it quite amusing, as did I at the time. Yes, I said mothers, being plural, as the couple we will be staying with are indeed lesbians, and I am so proud of them for being loving parents to the kids and I am also proud of the kids for being so accepting of it. Recently they had a horrible situation where their oldest wasn't allowed to have one of her friends over because her friends parents don't agree with homosexuality, and then told their child not to associate with her friend. I find this to be an absolutely disgusting thing to say to a child, and is just breeding hatefulness!
I am bisexual and I am proud of my sexuality! I will support and fight for those who need it! To me, homosexuality is NOT a sin or wrong or disgusting or anything! It is beautiful and LOVE IS LOVE!

But enough on sexuality. I have said my part.

I am very much looking forward to studying next year. I understand it will be difficult and I just hope that I will be able to get support and help when I am having problems. I have wanted to be a librarian since I was in high school, and now, 4 years later, I am finally taking the step forward! My partner, who I am so proud of, is also looking into doing a course next year. He will be doing disability services. This is very close to his heart as he has been living with a disability for his entire life and he understands what it is like.

I was on a roll and now my brain has suddenly stopped working. I had a distraction and now I think ill go and make fried rice.

Hello world, long time!

Since whenever I last posted, alot of crap has happened. Me and my partner were supposed to be having a house bought for us to pay back. That fell through :/ our housemate was supposed to be looking after the house while we were away, that fell through. Came home to the back window broke and the backyard trashed and the house was filthy. Then we were supposed to stay with my cousin for a few weeks till we got a new house. That fell through. So now we are in the one place I didnt want to be, and its actually going alright so far. Me and my partner are also in the process of buying two bearded dragons. Their names are Stumpy and Spike and they are very cute :) so far we know they like crickets and they love apples! Spike is pretty relaxed with himself, really tame and easy going. Stumpy is a bit more wary though, he doesnt feel safe unless he has all 3 feet on something solid, and they love to climb up my shirt and shoulders. The cat doesnt really know what to think but hes pretty happy because he still gets lots of attention. He hasnt been introduced to the lizards yet.

Anyways, theres an update for now!

Finally!

Finally, things are starting to go well! I've talked to the course overseer for the course I want to do, and have an appointment to see her, and apply! Im so excited, even though I do have to travel almost every weekend to attend classes. Also, I am seriously looking into buying my own house! My mum is amazing and is going to go guarator for me and if I cant get the loan, then she will and we will buy it from her! Serious to the point that we have already picked a house to look at. We also just got a massive tv. Now the rest of the year has to go well haha.

Update again in a few days :)

Well well, here I am again. A little happier today thankfully :) Organised our dogs cremation today which upset me a little but atleast she isnt sick now. Found my Tumblr account today, haha. So ill have a link to here on there and ill try to put a link on here :) HOPEFULLY going to the real estate today! Really need to get this paper work in!

Anyway, very quick update for the moment, might add more later.